I wonder how many of you have been watching the series of The Island with Bear Grylls, one episode with the men’s group and the other with the women’s. As soon as it began it was hard not to compare the performance of the two groups according to gender. Would stereotyped behaviour emerge or would our expectations be challenged? I was certainly shocked how easily half of the women’s group, venturing out to discover a site for a good base, were lost in the wilderness. They spent days without proper food and drink looping in circles through the trees trying to find, firstly their way to the sea, and then to find their way back to camp. Watching their struggles, Bear informed us that, without the ability to see the sky or any recognisable landmarks, us humans have the tendency to walk in circles. As teachers we can easily relate to the idea of been immersed in the forest, especially with the way our lives our governed by the academic calendar. We take great strides into the trees in September and emerge in June or July, blinking at the brightness of the sun. In between we trek well-worn paths and sometimes discover new ones. We often think we are in a new place, only to realise we have been here many times before. Our worlds become a life under the canopy. We listen to the twittering of the birds, but even these can be deceptive. We think we hear distant sound of those cutting down the forest only to discover that some tweets are mimicking chain saws, causing alarm about supposed new government initiatives, deceptively convincing.
About eighteen months ago I had a difficult choice to make: to make a move to another deputy role, go for some headships, or to carry on with the research I had enjoyed so much as part of my Masters, by starting a doctorate. I had juggled the Masters work with life as a Deputy, but knew that for me this would not be possible, if I was to keep going with the research. So I decided to step outside of the forest. This would allow me to carry on with the research, but also continue some of my favourite aspects of work as a deputy. I could work with teachers, as they worked through the PGCE process and write material to deliver to teachers through training encounters. At the end of my first year of research outside the forest, what I have learnt so far about the process?
- There is always so much to learn. I never thought of myself as a great writer, but I didn’t think I was terrible either, but I have learnt so much about the ways I can improve my technique through the superb, critical feedback I have received from my supervisors. They have challenged every aspect of my thinking process and we don’t get that enough in our working lives. Teachers are usually such a supportive community that we tend to praise our peers rather than truly critique them. It’s understandable, given morale at the moment, that the common approach is one of wanting to encourage others.
- There’s a lot to learn about the forest whilst being outside of it. Of course I’m not suggesting that it isn’t important for teachers to share good practice with each other. As a deputy I was passionate about learning together as a community, so much good can come from it. However, I’ve been surprised by many colleagues’ quick dismissal of what can be learnt from outside of the forest that can inform and enhance our day to day practice.
- Inspiration comes from many places. I have learnt an awful lot from a host of different sources including the twittering birds of Twitter. Through my research I have enjoyed the inevitable journal surfing, one journal leads to its references and then that takes you to the next article and so on. Like many here I’m sure, my Amazon wish list runs into hundreds. I have also learnt that sometimes we don’t get the chance to encounter some great sources of inspiration. This can be seen when people share their reading lists, as often the same dozen or so books are there. It’s an argument for access to research, but certainly if there are staff researching in your school it’s a bonus for them to share the good stuff with colleagues.
- Life outside the forest isn’t always easy. The regularity of the academic year can make you feel like you are living on a hamster wheel at times, but take that familiar regularity away suddenly and it can really throw you out of kilter. Teachers often say that the intensely structured life following the timetable of an academic year makes the years fly by. I’ve learnt that’s true, but also that there’s a lot to love about regularity, enjoy the support it gives you and that you always have the freedom to change.
- There’s a great view of the forest from here and I actually can see the wood for the trees. It’s all about a different perspective. Sometimes having the opportunity to step outside can help to see new things about the forest. Just like the women on The Island, with no chance to see the sky or recognisable landmarks, I know there were times when I could not see where I was. That is why I still see value in the away day INSET, because for that day you step outside of your usual routine. I’ve always felt that the chance to acknowledge the bubble we operate in and to be able reflect upon it is essential.
- Some people don’t value my time in the forest. This really shocked me. I’ve been teaching for over twenty years, but for some my move to senior leadership was enough to push me to cushy forest fringes where I sat in the comfortable visitor’s centre (drinking tea all day apparently). That was bad enough, but now I’ve basically been asked to leave the forest, because I have no idea of what it’s like to live there. I can, of course relate to there being different experiences of the forest. It’s very different being a lumberjack to say being a botanist. However, I do know what its like. I have learnt a lot from twenty plus years in the woods and I continue to learn from others who share their forest experiences. I have been trained as a teacher, have worked hard as a teacher and I continue to be proud to see myself as a teacher as I continue to teach. Why are some so quick to dismiss that?
- There are always new things appearing in the forest. This is one of the most exciting aspects of this life and yet at the same time this can also be a source of frustration. This is why it is important to always remember…
- There are many things that do not change. I can recall recently encountering the phrase ‘graphic organisers’ and being excited to discover this new development. I then realised it was essentially structured, i.e. with boxes or trees, etc., handouts. People were raving about their value and it made me laugh given that these have been part of my experience for well over twenty years.
- The more questions you ask, the more interesting it gets. For a number of years I have been fascinated by leadership theory and the impact it has on practical matters. I am amazed and saddened by those that teach for a living, but are so quick to dismiss any theoretical study of educational leadership. How does that inspire a love of learning? The more I study issues of leadership, headship, identity and gender the more I realise these questions definitely still need to be asked. Another reason why I am a passionate believer in the professional development of teachers.
- The forest looks amazing from here. Perhaps it’s because I am not trekking through, looping in circles. In the thick of it, with no break it’s easy to see the forest as some kind of prison, trapping us and sapping our energy. From here, it looks diverse, broad, huge, full of life and energy. New shoots are springing up all over the place ready to be nurtured. I’m hoping those inside don’t build too many fences because being able to go in and out of the forest I think does everyone some good.
Will I return to the forest? I’m not sure. I actually get to spend more time in classrooms now than I did as a deputy, but who knows where this new path goes, for me it’s undiscovered countryside out here. This weekend I saw three women from The Island on television talking about their experiences of reintegrating back into society, with all its comforts and excesses. Despite this and despite their lack of food, water, energy as seen on The Island, they were asked which would be their preferred choice – here or there. For all three it was easy, they wanted to go back there. It’s amazing what perspective can do for us all.